Saturday, March 31, 2012

She's ten days late boy your life got complicated

Been having a pregnancy scare in recent days and i came to the conclusion that it would not be the end of the world or anything even close to it.
I'm not saying it would be ideal but i would definitely be able to cope i think and that shows me just how far i have come in the last 12 months.
But i have had to picture what it would be like to tell S that i was pregnant and picture how we would raise a child together or if we would, if he'd want to be involved.
In all my senarios i did picture him stepping up.
Then tonight he cant even say one word to me but will chat away to emily as she sits right next to me?
I have had a lucky escape that's for sure.
I honestly hope he hits on me again in the future so that i can tell him i have more self respect than to let him treat me this way.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Oh how i wish i meant a little more than the sounds that eacape you're tired 4am lips

I never felt that way about you at all and yet your betrayal hurt just as much as his did.
The last few weeks were kind of amazing in terms of getting on. I never event noticed that i was attracted to you until it was too late.
Now having kissed you one week and been with you another you're on my mind quite a bit. The problem is that I know I'm not on yours.
I think you like me a little bit at least but I am realising you're never going to do anything about it.
I never learn.